Amusing

I find it quite amusing and ironic that people tell me how i should be raising my kids, and what i am doing wrong and how my kids should be acting and what they should be doing,
Like yeah Jason is behind other kids his age though you no what  HE WAS PREM, Jason is classed as a micro prem as he was 15 weeks premature, he is doing a great job with what he is doing, considering he shouldn't even be here though yeah im not doing a good enough job, People only seem to notice the things that Jason isnt doing they never seem to notice the things that he IS doing, we do our best, we really do, he is doing get and coming along nicely like yeah he isnt walking yet though wont be long until he is, He is still having alot of bottles during the day though i know 2 year olds and 3 year olds that still have a lot of bottles during the day, Yeah he isnt eating proper  food yeah (really chunky food), yeah that ones is my fault as when he was young he would choke on his food so i didnt want push him with it so he stayed on puree foods, after loosing a child, then your next child shouldnt be with you as they should not of made it you tend to be quite mothering and wrap them up in cotton wool though yeah that ones my fault, though now he is getting more teeth he is eating a lot better,
People really need to practice what they preach they really do... like yeah Jason is a bit of a handful, though how about instead of criticizing my parenting how about they look at their own, im not the only one with unruly kids god no one is perfect,
We have learnt with what we have dont wrong with Jason so we are not making the same mistakes with Deacan, though you show me a perfict mother or father and i will show you a lier, no child is born with a hand book so suck it up and get off my back, we do the best we can,
Until anyone else has a micro prem and can bring them up to speed with other kids their age at the same time then yeah you can tell me what to do, though for all you that dont get the hell off my back

Brick wall

Where is a brick wall when you need one... i just want to hit my head up against it....My father i swear... he is going to turn me grey, i really dont know what has gotten into him he is not himself, he has EVERYBODY worried about him, its like he has a split personality one min he is all happy and so forth then next turns really angry and nasty. as far as we all know he has depression, he is on meds for it though he takes them here and there
as far as i know he is suicidal, he has told his partner how he is going to kill himself, and keeps telling me he cant cope with everything and wants to be left alone,
though how are we ment to leave him alone when he keeps saying he wants to kill himself? how does that work?

i have enough of my own crap to deal with let alone adding on top of it with all this
im trying to get a head in my marriage making sure everything is ok, Jason is really sick at the moment with his asthma, deacan is being really fussy and wont settle cos he is teething, I have my own depression stuff on top of it all that i am trying to sort out,
last thing i need is to get a phone call from either the police or a family member saying that my father has killed himself, that would just put me over the edge

how are you ment to help someone that wont help themselves?