People

What is it with people these days?
Why does no body every just call you to say hello or to see how you are for? Why is it you only ever hear from people now when they want something, or to find out information?
Do people just not care about others? or take an interest in other people any more?
Im not going to do it any more screw it, I am sick of being the one who calls just for a chat, or because i haven't heard from someone for a while so just checking in to see if they are OK and don't need help with anything,
Like yeah fair enough i understand peoples lives are busy though how hard is it to pick up the phone and give a quick call? or send a quick email? or maybe a txt? like yeah it might be selfish of me saying this though yeah yeah, im just amazed with just how little anyone keeps in contact with anyone anymore,

So angry!!!!!

AHHHH!!!!!!!!!!! it makes me so bloody angry.... words cant even describe how angry it makes me
How can people lie about that? how can they be so sick in the mind about it

I cant stand people who LIE about loosing a child/baby, how bloody sick are you? are you in need of sympathy that bad you have to LIE about something so heart breaking like this...

How about you stop being so god damm selfish and have a thought about people who have been through this, have a thought about how they feel, about the emptiness they have in the heart and lives
Hope about you just get over yourself... lying about something so tragic you really need to get your head checked, people like you make me bloody sick......

You need to be strung up and hung then pelted with stones....

Im so sorry guys im not normally like this though i CAN NOT STAND people who lie about this just to get people to feel sorry for them, grrrr talk about attention seeking, god forbid it does ever happen to you now as NO ONE will EVER believe you

shoulder?

This might sound really selfish on my behalf or very rude and i am very sorry to all my family and friends that read this,
Though i am always there for family and friends when they need a shoulder or someone to talk to or someone to yell at or just want the company or just want someone there not to talk to though just to be there,
I have been there so much lately for everyone else, it really seems like people have forgotten about me, and how i am feeling, i might seem like i am ok if you are talking to me over msn, webcam,phone or in person, though i would really like to have that shoulder as i really feel like it is needed, though im not the type of person just to blurt it all out, as i know EVERYONE has their own stuff to deal with and their own problems, it would just be nice if someone asked how i was going, or feeling or just walked up to me and gave me a hug and told me everything was going to be alright,I seem to be crying everyday and most of the time i have no idea what i am crying over i just cry,
Some days i look in the mirror and have no idea any more who is looking back at me, like tomorrow is my birthday and i dont feel like celebrating one bit at all, a small part of me doesnt even want to wake up,
or if i do wake up to be told it was all a very bad dream,
as i said this probably sounds all very selfish and i am sorry if it does

Knowing how I feel...

I have been umming and aring about posting this though i thought stuff it, this is my blog, this is my way of expressing how i feel, I know this is really going to piss some people off though to be honest i dont care i really need to get this out as i have been stewing on it for way to long

I dont see how people can tell me they know how i feel and what i am going through after loosing Bryce, when they havent been through it, one person really got to me and that was my step sister, she had a miscarriage at 8 weeks and had the nerve to tell me she knew exacly how i felt when i lost Bryce, im sorry sweetie no you dont, yeah a miscarriage is hard and upsetting i have had enough to know though it does NOT compare to a 2nd or 3rd trimester lost,

I have had so many people tell me they know what i am going through as their mum or friend etc went throguh it or they have had a miscarriage under 12weeks, im sorry though how is that the same as loosing a 20+ gestation baby?

You dont have to plan a funeral for the baby, you dont have to hold that lifeless body in your arms.... you dont have to walk into birth death and marriages to register you babies name....

Im sorry this must sound so selfish on my behalf though i just can put up with it any more, i needed to get it off my chest