Guilt?

Why cant i get rid of this guilt that i am caring around....
I am still blaming myself for Bryce, as it was MY body that rejected him... why cant i seem to shake it for?
it feels like i have the whole world on my shoulders... I have told him that i a sorry and that if i could change things i would,

Trust

I find it really hard to trust people, i cant give my trust out just like that
people have to earn my trust,
There are a very few out there i trust and they know who they are
I am really hoping that this blog stay private as there are people that i dont want reading it, as they dont understand me, or understand how i feel, what i think or what i see through my eyes,
that is why i started a new one as someone who i did give the link to gave it out to other people after i had told them not to.......