rudeness

I am so sick of the rudeness of some people. thy just push and push and push, and at the moment i have had so much other stuff on my mind, with work and this pregnancy plus with me being the only one who was working, my kids, deacan's surgery though no its not that hard is it........
on another note had the market stall today, it didnt go to bad, we are going o go back next week and this time take a lot more stuff with us, as we forgot most of it, as i was in a rush,


have another scan tomorrow, looking forward to it though also scared at the same time, find out if bub is growing like it should be as last week it didnt grow that much, though on a plus side i am geting bigger and also feeling more sicker to, morning sickness has kicked in big time,

Negitivity

I am over all the negative people in my live,
Life is to short for anyone like that in it...
So now instead of getting pissed off or Irate at them i am just going
keep them out of my life and my kids life,
Im sure after i don't talk to them anymore or let them see my kids
they will figure out what they have done wrong,
I have worked so hard on Daniel and I's marriage now to let little selfish people come in and drive a wedge between us
I now think that if people want to try bring drama and god knows what else into my life then either
1) they are jealous
2) they have nothing better to do with their life
or
3) they are just down right rude

Though either way its not my problem

Daniel and I just really don't need this any more we really don't, 
So from now on i really couldnt give two hoots about anyone elses crap or drama or what ever i am not going to retaliate or even act like i can any more, the boys in my life is all i am going to worry about any more, im just so over it, other peopels crap keeps bringing us all down, and we have enough of our own stuff to deal with then with anyone else adding to it,

shoulder?

This might sound really selfish on my behalf or very rude and i am very sorry to all my family and friends that read this,
Though i am always there for family and friends when they need a shoulder or someone to talk to or someone to yell at or just want the company or just want someone there not to talk to though just to be there,
I have been there so much lately for everyone else, it really seems like people have forgotten about me, and how i am feeling, i might seem like i am ok if you are talking to me over msn, webcam,phone or in person, though i would really like to have that shoulder as i really feel like it is needed, though im not the type of person just to blurt it all out, as i know EVERYONE has their own stuff to deal with and their own problems, it would just be nice if someone asked how i was going, or feeling or just walked up to me and gave me a hug and told me everything was going to be alright,I seem to be crying everyday and most of the time i have no idea what i am crying over i just cry,
Some days i look in the mirror and have no idea any more who is looking back at me, like tomorrow is my birthday and i dont feel like celebrating one bit at all, a small part of me doesnt even want to wake up,
or if i do wake up to be told it was all a very bad dream,
as i said this probably sounds all very selfish and i am sorry if it does