Been a while

So its been awhile since i have last posted anything,
every time i sit down to write something happens with the kids or i go to sit and write and my mind becomes blank, and have no idea what to write,

I have been trying to help a god friend of mine latley as she has suffered a loss, though unlike most of us baby loss mummas she never go to see or hold her little one or even get the chance to find out the sex of her baby, as she was only 17 weeks along, my heart really breaks for her and for all the other mothers and fathers out there as well for having to go through this,
I'm finding it hard with what to say to her, though i am always offering my ear or shoulder if she ever needs it,
I remember after loosing Bryce there was not much anyone could say or do though just having that person on the other end of the phone or MSN was great to be able to talk to them and let out what i was feeling, I did suggest to her that possibly writing about it might help as i have found that writing has helped me though i know writing isnt for everyone,

So as well all know this weeks is remembrance week so i would like to take the time to ask everyone to please think about all the other parents that have lost their children as well if that is ok please,

things with me have been getting there, i still have my good and bad days as i am still finding around the house little things of bryce's through out the house
I am also feeling quite guilty as i have not been out to see him in a very long time, i find that i go to drive out there to say hello and i start crying before i even get there so i turn around and come back.. Im not sure why i am getting like this as i used to be ok driving out there it was just once i got there and seen his tomb stone i start crying,

Children

Im so blessed to have my 3 boys i really am i wouldnt give them p for nothing

I go the worse news yesterday a firend of mine over in the states told us all that she lost her 4 month old a week ago, my heart breaks for her it really does, as the loss of a child is something that no one should EVER go through, little beckett died of SIDS, he was such a beautiful little boys,

So for all the mothers/fathers out there that get pissed off at your children and get angry at them and yell and so forth just think yourself lucky that you still have your little one/s there with you,
Remember to kiss them EVERY day tell them how much you love them and how they mean the world to you,
Because you never know when your time will get cut short with them,

RIP Beckett

Thinking

I was thinking about starting a cause on Facebook regarding mums and dads who have lost little one, to bring out the awareness that child birth isn't as straight forward as we all believe, and how not every person is so lucky to have their little ones with them,

I know that i am bless with my 2 beautiful boys that i have been given after the loss of Bryce, though there are some mums and dads out there, though don't have any other children, who haven't been blessed like some of us,


And i know quite a few people that have been blessed with not loosing a child,

If i can get enough people behind me with this i will start the cause, can you please let me know if you are interested or not

Finding things that help

So along my travels in trying to find answers and trying to speak to other poor mums that have lost little ones, i was put in touch with this page Stirrup queens there are a huge list of pregnancy loss and baby loss mums and other factors as well,
It really breaks my heart to know that there are so many mums out there that have gone through this,
To know the pain that i go through each day all these mums and dads go through it to, its not fair


People say that it is "gods work" why does he get to choose who comes and goes

Helping others

I really want to help others out that have been through the loss of a child
Or have had a premature baby,

I want to be there for other people when they need it though i am unsure how to help
I want to be able to have all the information here on my blog for other people to read, if you have lost a child for a reason let me know and i can place a link on my blog for other mums to go and read and possible get help, also the same for a premature baby as well i REALLY want to help others, and let other mums out there know about these problems so if and god forbid any of them do happen they have the early warning signs to look out for so they dont suffer the same losses we have

Other Blogs?

Hey ladies/guys Just wondering do any of you know anyone else that has a blog that i can read, that is going through the same? the loss of a child? loss of a loved one? Grieving? Depression? Im sorry i know that sounds rude though it would be nice to read how other people handle it, and how they cope