Upsetting......

I have just had something pointed out to me that is really upsetting,
I am apart of a site that is meant to be caring and understanding where you can post anything you need to or want to get help/support, and you can do the same for others
I made a post on this site stating that i "THOUGHT" i felt movement, like yeah i know its "WAY" to early to feel anything tough i just wanted to know if any of the other ladies were he same,  though they took it to another thread on the site and started bagging the shit out of me, saying how it was just gas ra ra ra, like you hink i don know this???

Also another one was they were after belly pics, so i posted one of mine,  like yes i know its not baby as bub isnt big enough though they turn around and start calling me anorexic, and saying how is bloat and all that BS,

I feel sorry for one lady on the board, she cheated on her husband (cant remember the full story) thouh know she is pregnant and these lades are carrying on about that to,

It just so shockin how some people can be so rude and spiteful and just wrong, 

People wonder why i don tell them things for, as when i finally do i get accused of being an attention whore and a lair

I feel like the other ladies on my Due date Bord have a right to know, though i really don't want to cause them all the stress and the sadness that these spiteful ladies cause, though of cause we report them an nothing will happen shock horror there

they areall acting like a bunch of high school teens,  and they are meant to be mothers and mum to be,
just shows you that people can be a bunch or morons

6w4d

well i have another Ultrasound on Thursday i will be 6w6d 
not really sure what i will see, tough i hope peanuts heartbeat is a lot higher :) and that my hematoma has gone down, been getting some bleeding and spotting for the past couple of weeks and some cramping as well, tough most o the pain is going with some painkillers i hate having to take them though thats what the hospital has told me to do

though on the up side of the ultrasound at least i will find out if there is one or two heartbeats,  as she thought she could see 2 sacs side y side though wasnt 100% sure, so i guess thursday will let me know for sure,

Deacan's surgery is coming up

Well Deacan's surgery is coming up, today is Saturday and his surgery is on Tuesday, I have the whole day off work for it, though if he is ok and is fine come the afternoon i am going to go in,

im a tad bit scared with it, though i know he will be fine as he is strong and is a fighter, though the number one thing that scared me was that the doctors said that because he has had a chest infection in the past 4 weeks there is a higher chance of him having a bronciolspasam (sorry about spelling) and that is what is scaring me the most,

Daniel and I are allowed to walk down he hall with him before he goes into surgery though i get really freaked out with it, and i dont want to stress Deacan out any more than what he is going to be,

I know that my hormones are going to be everywhere and then also seeing my little baby in pain and not being able to take the pain away is going to be hurtful as well, though the main thing is that he wont be in pain for long (a couple of days at the most) and the hospital will send him home on strong pain killers (for his age) though i will keep you all updated with what happens with it any how

Vivid DreamLa

st night i had the most vivid dream i have ever had it felt so real right down to the pain i experienced in my dream,
im not to sure if i was at hospital or out with a big group of people around me though i dreamed i was in labor again, this was so full on right down to the intense pain of ever contraction I have not had a dream like in a very very long time,
it was really scary, does any one know what this could mean? and before any one asks no i am not pregnant

Finding things that help

So along my travels in trying to find answers and trying to speak to other poor mums that have lost little ones, i was put in touch with this page Stirrup queens there are a huge list of pregnancy loss and baby loss mums and other factors as well,
It really breaks my heart to know that there are so many mums out there that have gone through this,
To know the pain that i go through each day all these mums and dads go through it to, its not fair


People say that it is "gods work" why does he get to choose who comes and goes