So Tired

I am so so so so so tired this morning
I havent been sleeping well for the past week i keep waking up during the night and finding it hard to get back to sleep,
though last night started off good, i went to bed at 8pm and i didn't wake up until Daniel started to give me a back rub cos he woke up horny,

So i done the good wife thing and gave him sex even though i didn't want it, then it took me forever to get back to sleep, mind you its 1am at this point (when he woke me up) then deacan started on and off though i didnt go in and get him up cos he was just whining though he got up at 4am though fell back asleep on his bottle

I think today after i drop the kids at daycare i will come home and go back to bed..... or ill do the house work, then sleep

Sorry guys

Im sorry guys that i have not posted for a while, things have been Very busy for me,
With both Jason and Deacan teething, plus with myself looking for work, and i now have laryngitis and really feel like crap !!!!!!!! though oh well no use complaining now one listens as they say lol,
Jason is doing great he is coming along so far and fast now :) he now drinks out of a sippy cup properly its so cute and he is getting really fast with teh crawling and he now stands all by himself wont be long now until he is walking he now only has one sleep through the day, though still thinks he needs more as he is an utter grump during the day later on after his sleep lol

Deacan slept through the night last night for the very first time though he was good and drank a whopping 280ml out of his bottle no wonder he slept the whole night lol,  also have him on solids now he loves them :)

tired

im so tired this morning, had an ok night with Deacan last night and i was in bed by 7pm.. i was up for almost 24 hours, he only woke twice last night though i am so tired still now, Jason is in daycare today, though deacan isnt, its 5.50am and coffee isnt even doing its job i look like death warmed up... how am i ment to return to work when i am going to be as tired as this, how am i going to be able to keep my mind on the job when all i want to do is sleep,
And yet how am i ment to go for job interviews when i am looking so tired

Angry

grr i get so angry at times....
you really think that Daniel would understand of be a little bit more compassionate about things though i guess im wrong,
Lately i have been having lot of bad nights with Deacan and i have no idea why he is just waking up every hour to 2 hours for a feed, then wont settle after as if its like he is over full and has a sore belly,
any how, last night was just really bad, he has been up since 11pm, and just wouldn't stop crying/screaming one moment he wanted his bottle the next he didnt, so i would burp him (as we have had a lot of problems with colic) then put him back in his bed he would be fine for about 5 mins **just enough time to get back into bed and comfortable** then he would wake/ start screaming again, i got so cranky at him and yelled at him i really didnt mean to though at this point it was 2am this had been going on for about 3 hours straight, and then daniel has a go at me telling me to be quite and ra ra ra ra as he needs to go to work... like bloody hell,
Ill be returning back to work soon, and i cant see daniel getting up in the middle of the night to him if i have to work, as i will be returning and working on a Friday, Saturday,Sunday and Monday then also Wednesday when i can put Deacan into daycare for that day... though do you really think of a weekend daniel will get up to deacan? and put up with his temper tannties??? just so i can sleep so i can go to work
NO he wouldnt he doesnt wake up to him at all...
I really wish he would stop pulling the whole "work card " out on me... im sure if i had a better paying job then him he wouldnt stay home and look after the kids.... its not as easy as it looks,.....