Dreams

AHHH these dreams are really starting to get to me i am having them every night and some nights i have them more than once,
Part of me doesnt mind having these dreams as i quite like them
though the part of me feels guilty as i am married and they are not of my husband

these dreams feel so real to, i wake up from them and i can swear that it has happened and i can remember every single part of it, my heart is racing when i wake up....

Guilt?

Why cant i get rid of this guilt that i am caring around....
I am still blaming myself for Bryce, as it was MY body that rejected him... why cant i seem to shake it for?
it feels like i have the whole world on my shoulders... I have told him that i a sorry and that if i could change things i would,