Trying couple of day

Well all i can say is that the past couple of days have been ever so trying........


they have made it very HARD not to go back to smoking or at least have a coffee though its now been 8 days since i have had a smoke or coffee, and i am not going to let some self absorbed people make me start again i am better than that, and i am not going to stoop to their level and cave as that's probably all that they want

Daniel and I have come into some really shocking news that we are just not read to pass on yet as we are coming to ways to deal with it and to see what is going to happen its our choice no one else its Daniel and my life no one else

though thanks to a good couple of people my view have shot through the roof... so for someone saying that i am so self absorbed and love creating so much drama thanks for feeding it *dickheads*

this is my page views for the past 2 days

Pageviews today

131

Pageviews yesterday

204

thank you for hte stats guy really thanks *waves*  though like seriously can you please stop posting my link on other boards??? like really do you all need to cause more drama, its so funny how people are that gutless they post crap about you where you cant see it i guess that makes them ever so big lol
any how thats it for the time being Jason is crying and wants to get out of bed again and i have tea cooking
so until next time
Sarah xx

Laughing

Why do people seriously have to laugh at my expense for?
People read what i write here and then laugh about it,  i never knew that people could be so sick,
Or really get off on other peoples unhappiness,

Like seriously i have no problem with people reading this thats why i took it off private as i have nothing to hide in here,

though it really makes me Mad when people then have to take the link of my blog to OTHER sites and post it on there for others to bitch and judge me about it
Like seriously how bloody low can some people get,

And people have the nerve to say i have no life LMFAO!!!! look at the you like seriously i can see where you post my link to my blog, i can SEE everyone who sees this LOL and people really think they can get away with it,

The true form of a bully.....

Since where cant people come and talk to the ones they have a problem with, why do they have to go about things so secretly for? People just dont think DO YOU!!!!!!

Its funny it really is, to see the reffering sites that people have been coming from, and that people think its just so much fun to post my thoughts out there for other people to mock...
Seriously GROW UP get a life and get over yourself

So Happy

YAY i am so happy i have been coffee and smoke free for one week now!!!!! YAY

One of those days

Well today has just been "one of those days"

My new phone got switched over today, so i have been trying to figure out how to use it, 

tried getting most of the house work done though that didnt happen lol,

Got a call from the daycare about Deacan they said he had a bad rash and that we needed to pick him up. we wasnt able to get him in to the doctor so instead we took him up to the hospital to get checked out we were up there for about 4 hours just to find out that it was just a Viral rash though i am glad its nothing major

oh and a whole lot of drama started today on the Fertility site that i am a member of,

they all took it upon themselves to think i was TTC  just becuase i have started to chart again, and becuase i went out and brought OPK's and HTP's i brought a lot of OPK's so i can try and pin point the day that i ovulate,  ao i know thats when daniel and i have to be EXTRA careful,

Oh and because our version of BC isnt up to others standards, either we use condoms or Daneil Pulls out either way we are fine,  though even after all that crap with having to defend myself for something i should not have to i still didnt go out for a smoke or have a coffee so I am very happy with that,

SO yeah basiclly with people who dont want drama they why do they cause it themselves for? on this topic of the board there is like 60+ replies to it, and instead of people acting like ADULTS they didnt come and talk to me about it, they had to start up a topic about it,

I very rarely go on that board any more, mainly cos i am to busy to sit there and read/reply to every post there, when i do go on and check whats been said i dont reply to a lot as i don't know what to say. though still why am i even bothering to to explain myself for???

Oh and i have my blog link in my signature on there, then they turn around and say that its jsut drama ra ra ra ra, i dont remember the EXACT words that they used though to be honest i cant be bothered going on there and seeing what they have wrote, cos then i will reply to it  and then add more fuel to the fire,

So Daniel knows that i am back on Fertility Friend and that i am Charting yet, not to sure if he knows that i have OPK's though he hasnt asked about it, if he does i will tell him why,

So besides all that happening today, i havent managed to get the house clean as i have the father in law and his daughter coming over tonight for tea and possible staying the night,

So i am trying to keep all the drama and negativity away from me there has been so much of it with in the past 3 years, i dont need more of it this year,

any how thats all for now,  will update all a bit later,

More than likely the girls from FF are reading this and going to start more crap though oh well

any how chat soon

Sarah xx

What a great day

I honestly wonder what else could go wrong today, it has been one thing after another,

To start with didnt have the best wake up of the morning, though it was such a hot day today, both the boys were home from daycare today so i bet they felt every minute of it, as they are used to being in air conditioning and we only have it in the main bedroom it only gets used when i am really feeling the heat

I got my new phone today just waiting for the numbers to be switched over woot woot,  so trying to learn how to use that, its gongto take a while i think LOL

Had a visit today from the Missionaries it was good for them to drop in and to see if i was ok and see how everything is going, and also to make sure i havent had a smoke or any coffee or tea, though yep nothing for 4 days now and i am feeling so much better, i am eating better and also sleeping better as well

though i need to get tea ready soon having veg and snaggs im really hungry for tea LOL, hope it tastes alright,

Though to top off such a great day today, i spilled  boiling water over my left hand and still now 30 mins later my ring,middle and index finger are still stinging, and have swollen a little, i guess that will be another scare to go with the rest of them....


 but yeah must say good bye time to get tea ready.

Sarah

Big Days

I feel you are ment to have your family there for you on your big days

Most of my big days i have had family there for me,
My wedding day, the birth of Bryce and Jason, Bryces funeral all of those i had family there for me and to share that day with me,

The birth of Deacan i had to do all on my own, I had no one there, i went through the labour on my own, i remember just how scared that i was,
Though now i have another big day coming up in a couple of weeks,
my baptism,
This day is a huge big step for me, just to bad i cant have family there with me, My father in law is going to come if he isnt working,
Though Daniel wont be there, guess i shouldnt expect anything less hey....

An Attraction...

Is it normal to have an attraction to someone you would never think you would? im married have been for going on 4 years this year, have 3 kids and i guess you could say that i am happy, I dont know i get out of bed each morning i guess thats a start

So with all this is it normal to be finding my self attracted to another person? I feel guilty for having these feelings/thoughts,

I just cant seem to shake them

Maybe i am starting to look to much into it, maybe i just need to try and forget it, put it out of my head